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This year has been a struggle for many people, and Eurovision stars are no exception. Now Mikolas Josef is using his platform to raise awareness about mental health by recounting his own difficulties. The much-loved Eurovision 2018 star has shared an emotional post on Instagram, explaining that he cut social media from his life as he fought extreme anxiety.

The Czech hit maker begins by describing how he quit his record label earlier this year, and recounts the internal struggle behind the decision: “Out of all the things in this world I ever had the struggle saying, this one was the hardest”.

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Spring 2020 I came to the record office and said I quit. Out of all the things in this world I ever had the struggle saying this one was the hardest. I was ashamed of looking weak and so instead of saying “I need help” I tried to keep all the pride I had left and walk away from it. Now I know that to show weakness and take the judgement that follows is a sign of strength. I have anxiety and over the years it got to its peak early this year. The first time I had one was back in 2016. Fast forward to 2020 my body shakes for 4 hours, heart races like Im having a heart attack, when I stand Im falling down, I cant put words together and my asthma makes it feel like there is no oxygen in the air. The panic that takes over your mind is overwhelming. Are you Mikolas Josef? “Yes but I wish I wasnt.” Sharing this with your family members is emberassing enough simply because you fear they will think lesser of you. Sharing this with the world was just unspeakable for me at the time and I needed space to step back and figure out where to go with my life so that it leads away from this. I cutted social media out of my life because looking at people showing off their success was crushing my self worth to bits. I realized I became shallow. Based my confidence on 20k$ outfits while the inside of me was a wasteland. Realized I paid way too much attention to what people outside the creative circle are saying about my music and that took the love away from it. I became distant from myself, my feelings, my values. I felt like a stranger in my own company. I almost never went out, never really had friends or buddies it was complete social isolation and I got so cutted away from the real world that my thoughts were my only companions. Real success isnt being #1. Aiming for that only fucks you up. You only really feel fullfilled when you love what you do. And I realized that. Found love for the things I do, for the people around me, for me and for my demons too. They are my teachers not my enemies. Every day is worth living. Every day is a lesson. Thanks to all those who suffered through this with me. I cant thank you enough for your bravery. Xoxo M

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“I was ashamed of looking weak and so instead of saying ‘I need help’ I tried to keep all the pride I had left and walk away from it,” he explains. “Now I know that to show weakness and take the judgement that follows is a sign of strength. I have anxiety and over the years it got to its peak early this year. The first time I had [a panic attack] was back in 2016. Fast forward to 2020 my body shakes for 4 hours, heart races like I’m having a heart attack, when I stand I’m falling down, I can’t put words together and my asthma makes it feel like there is no oxygen in the air. The panic that takes over your mind is overwhelming.”

“Are you Mikolas Josef? Yes, but I wish I wasn’t”

Mikolas also explains how difficult it was for him to share his problems with the people closest to him: “Sharing this with your family members is embarrassing enough simply because you fear they will think lesser of you. Sharing this with the world was just unspeakable for me at the time and I needed space to step back and figure out where to go with my life so that it leads away from this.”

He also describes how he felt towards social media, which he cut from his life completely. Actually, this post is his only photo on Instagram right now, and his thumbnail is an image which reads “I will be back.”

“I cut social media out of my life because looking at people showing off their success was crushing my self worth to bits. I realized I became shallow. Based my confidence on $20k outfits while the inside of me was a wasteland. Realized I paid way too much attention to what people outside the creative circle are saying about my music and that took the love away from it.”

“I became distant from myself, my feelings, my values. I felt like a stranger in my own company. I almost never went out, never really had friends or buddies it was complete social isolation and I got so cut away from the real world that my thoughts were my only companions. Real success isnt being #1. Aiming for that only fucks you up.”

However, Mikolas has found some light in this dark journey: “You only really feel fulfilled when you love what you do. And I realized that. Found love for the things I do, for the people around me, for me and for my demons too. They are my teachers not my enemies. Every day is worth living. Every day is a lesson. Thanks to all those who suffered through this with me. I cant thank you enough for your bravery. Xoxo M.”

Have you ever felt like Mikolas? Do you still play his Eurovision song and his other music? Send him a message of love down below!

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?inas
?inas
2 months ago

I feel the same about social media. We shouldnt pay attention to what others are trying to show us compare to what they really having in their lives and think positive about our life and the things we have as humans!

RavensHeart
RavensHeart
2 months ago

This is so true, I know this feeling myself.
looking at people showing off their success was crushing my self worth to bits.

Sara
Sara
2 months ago

As a girl who also suffers anxiety this hit me hard and I bursted out into tears. I know exactly what he is feeling. Looking so happy, and being happy at times, but also suffering on the inside. Although i’m not at the point yet where he is. I’m not as far as he is with my anxiety. I have so much respect for him. I’m so happy to see he is doing better. He’s a real inspiration

Una
Una
2 months ago

OMG I am sure words can mean little for anyone who struggles but there is truth in “time heals” and encouragement try to seek help and not do this alone. Now empathy is taking over me and I feel sad for Mikolas. I don’t know how a stranger’s encouragement would matter but I am sending a fan’s love to Mikolas and the best vibes possible.

Alex
Alex
2 months ago

omg no 🙁 i wish him well, he should take a long break.

Fast Food Music Lover
Fast Food Music Lover
2 months ago

I can totally relate to this! I think for someone like him to come out about this is really brave. I wish him all the best!

Erasmus
Erasmus
2 months ago

I kind of knew that he wasn’t alright (just had a sense). Wish him alright – he should take his time and find motivation again. He also doesn’t need IG and so on, he just needs music! <3